Me as a Process

A 360-degree exploration of the self through rotation, ritual, and transformation.

I am thirty-three years old in these photographs; in just a few weeks, as March approaches, I will turn thirty-four. I stand before the camera driven by a mix of playfulness and a growing desire to explore myself through the lens of self-portraiture. What began as a simple series of shots is quickly evolving into a disciplined ritual, a process in which I act simultaneously as the designer, the photographer, the subject, and the explorer.

The method I have chosen is systematic and rigorous. I position myself in front of the camera, capture a frame, and then rotate my body by forty-five degrees, as if following the rigid lines of a cavalier projection. I check each sequence on the digital back, watching my movements unfold like a film shot in stop motion, before carefully returning to the exact same spot to begin the cycle again.

On Sundays, the ritual takes on a more transformative and visceral dimension with the shaving of my hair and beard. I am beginning to shave my head, continuing to rotate and shoot throughout the entire transformation. The resulting sequence feels almost comical at times; despite my best efforts to remain solemn for the camera, it occasionally catches a burst of laughter—a human moment that breaks the monotony of these otherwise serious portraits.

Throughout the process, I constantly review the frames, adjusting the exposure and analyzing every detail in an attempt to reposition myself with millimetric precision. Yet, I inevitably stumble. Sometimes I find myself leaning too far forward compared to the previous shot, or drifting toward the edges of the frame, failing to achieve the perfect, three-dimensional model I initially envisioned.

In the end, these technical deviations are becoming the most honest part of the work, standing in stark contrast to the idea of a flawless reconstruction and reminding me that the study of the self is, by its very nature, an imperfect journey.

This series is a curated selection from a much larger archive of approximately 800 photographs. Each frame serves as a precise data point in this extensive documentation, capturing every micro-variation of my physical presence and the incremental stages of my transformation.